My last blog post was ‘Changing gear’, which, for it’s time, was quite correct. Actually, maybe that’s the point of blogs, that they reflect how you are, or what you’re up to, at the time. I guess in that sense, it’s quite correct. However, things move on, and so, I’d better write a new post, as, otherwise, the wrong impression can be given.
The gear one is in is a reflection of where one is, at that point in time. 4 Weeks ago I was tired. I’d been working for 7 months, with no real breaks, doing a job which had bored me. Whilst the job was near home, and paid reasonably well, it wasn’t satisfying, leading me to the point of exhaustion. There were some moments of high stress, but, usually, it was fine. However, worse than this, I had pushed myself to be something more. Thus, 4 weeks ago, I was tired, exhausted, and a little emotional.
Into this mix came a few girls who wanted to see me. Frankly, I was tired, I had reached the end of this path, had run out of steam, and needed a break. I just said that I didn’t have the capability to see someone, to give myself over to a relationship, or, more so, a new relationship.
However, over the past few weeks something has happened. I have relaxed, and found my energy returning. Already people are noticing that my smile has returned, and I’m not as intense as I was then. For work, I’m taking a different approach. Without realising it, I’m realising what I want in my next contract. It’s not being near home, so I can run away at 5pm. It’s not short hours, or easy work. Rather, it’s being more accepting of where I am, of being more relaxed, and not always worrying about the next contract, or what it’s doing for my career.
A by product of this has been that I’m now energised enough to get back into the dating game. In fact, I was off JDate for a while, around 6 weeks I think, but I’m now back on, and have met a lovely new girl. You may recall the girl I mentioned before, well, she’s met someone, and, whilst I still like her, I know it’s never going to be more than as friends. You might say: but meet her first! Actually I did, and spent a nice afternoon with her, and whilst she’s still a lovely girl, the chemistry wasn’t there to go further. So, let’s see how things pan out with this new girl. So far, it all seems great, but let’s see.
Speaking of contracts, it has been a little depressing that it’s been 4 weeks, with no offers (bar one silly one), but that’s the nature of being a contractor! Still, I live in hope, and reasonable hope I’ll be working in the next week or so. A couple of interviews Monday should sort things out, maybe!
Just a short round-up, more next time!
